My Apology (females please give me some feedback)
i'm about to get on some ol' whiny broken-hearted type shit 'cuz i don't give a fuck how hard anyone thinks they are, everybody gets like this sometimes. this is about a girl named gina who i've been trying to get with for months. needless to say it didn't work (or i wouldn't be writing this, stupid!). the rhyme structure is kinda week but i put my feelings in it. tell me if y'all feel it.
For a while admiring from a distance
Persistence met with resistance
I probably fucked up in this instance
Don't know if there ever could have been a connection
Can't help but think i went in the wrong direction
No use in reflection
It's too late
Need to accept my new fate
Or maybe it was meant to be this way
Who knows? it's not meant for me to say
The whole situation's kinda hard for me to digest
But i digress
Just want to apologize for the way things are and the way they have to be
It's a fact to see things have changed between us
It's fucked up, this is something i didn't mean but please don't be mad at me
We used to hang out every day
Now we seem to have gone our separate ways
At least i've gone mine
I know you want things to be the same but they can't be
The reason being, well, there's some things you just can't see
Or don't see
Believe me i'm lonely
I wish just as much as you for the days when it was always us two
Now i just try to keep my distance from you
Unfair i know, but this is what i need to do
When you're not around, believe me, girl i feen for you
You're smile is like the sunshine, hate to go a day without seein' it
The time has come for me to think of me in this
If you only knew what i put into
A lost cause so i gave up, wouldn't you?
Got sick of doing all the things i knew he wouldn't do
I did 'em all
Trips to the mall
Sometimes i wanted to say no, but i didn't have the balls
Had to stop eventually, i wasn't worth it
Tryin' so hard in a situation far from perfect
Always thought i'd get there if i drive farther
Got to a point where i had to say "why bother?"
Some of it was you, no matter what i did it was never enough
Sometimes you would flip on me 'cuz your temper's rough
Get pissed at me for no reason that was obvious
Whether right or wrong i'd always end up sayin' sorry quick
Do anything for you but i wondered if you'd do the same
Sometimes you didn't show it, don't know what i had to lose or gain
As far as answers i'm comin' up short like i was three foot two
I'm not your boyfriend so i stopped doing things that he should do
Regardless i still adore you
But if you're happy with him what else can i do but be happy for you?
I attempt to fake it faithfully
Go with him 'cuz there's really no place for me
What's left but for me to bow out gracefully?
Though i may not always be the friend i used to be
Please forgive me, i don't mean it truthfully
Turn my back, 'cuz i don't see any other way
Hopefully we can make it work another day
For now i'll leave, go with him and be happy
Or try to be, if it doesn't work get at me
Maybe i'll move on, maybe i'll sit around and wait
Maybe if i play the middle ground i'm straight
I won't be the sucker anymore i pledge that solidly
If that hurts you, consider this my apology
You said u wanted some females replyin' so here it goes....it was tight, the real flows always come out soundin' the illest..i did a collab like this with a guy from his point of view and then mine..so I was feelin' this...keep reppin'
Tight piece. Bringing it real, good to express ish from the heart. Understand where you're coming from, stay up. Keep reppin
Felt every word of that man.....
I'm actually in that similar possition right now man, seriously....gotta give you props for that man...I love seein cats expressin them selves and their true feelings to the public...takes a real man/woman to do that!!!
One luv bro..you ripped it
AFFEX aka Dynamix
i been in yer position more than once
that was tight... i felt that and i know how ya feel... i've been in her shoes... she'll realize... maybe if she's lucky, it won't be too late... i think i was lucky enough to cash in my chips before they expired... good luck bruh
Yo, I'm feeling this one. Peep "Cupid's Final Arrow" at
just to let you know I have been in that mood many a times.
Word, we've all been there...it's true when you say no matter how hard one thinks he may be, these feelings do take place...that's what makes us human...
This is all from the bottom of my heart,
Honeydip, affectionate doesn't cover it,
Fine craftsmanship in this art,
Only time can set us apart,
There's no easy road,
You're all I see--futuristic nostalgic mode,
Irrefutably my lady,
Maryj, she's All I Need To Get By,
It's no lie, as a couple, we'd be fly,
"You got that right" is her feeling deep down
'Cuz we don't wanna wait 'til the next lifetime,
JeM and I hook like samples to drum beats to a rhyme,
Don't you know real Hip-Hop when you see it?
Solidifyin' these intangibles--best believe it,
Just by movement of my mandibles,
I can guarantee it,
I get greater every 1/60th of a minute,
She inspires my spirit,
Peep an ill instrumental and get all in it,
Even with all the gear that's out, you see,
Sometimes, you're the only thing that looks good on me,
Take it from me, my tenderony,
We can make nice in this vice paradise,
But you bein' away from me is anamoly,
I want you back for good,
So I can seize the opportunity--understood?
"Just the two of us, you and I",
A perfect match,
We're always in the corner of eachother's eye
Skippin' a beat is our cardiacs,
Though, in life, things don't always go the way they're supposed to,
I'll just continue to compose, duke,
It's the least I could do,
You're strong enough for this man, and I'm made for you,
A Romey-and-Juley-type sob story,
But this is nonfiction, true,
If all goes accordingly,
And we got over the apex,
What's next is I'll take care of the rest...
Thee epitome of the Affinity's Infinity...
...death to the ILLUMINATIon...I keep hope a lie 'cuz it's over for you!
Word....Always supportin brotha, anytime!!!
i'm not one to reply to my own shit, but definitely big ups to chinaqua cuz it's like 1:30 in the morning and i'm in a bad mood and he's just im'ing me talking about some real life shit. it's always cool when some one understands where you're coming from. peace.
This was realness...headz should always write about what they feel...and you know what...i can empathize...i been there and occasionally show up there again, and again...keep ya head up...